Sunday, February 11, 2007

I feel hot. Cheeks are stinging, palms are sweating. Usually that means that my blood sugar is high, but I just tested it at 151. A little high, but not enough that it should make me feel this way. Not even high enough that I'm going to correct for it unless it is still this high in a couple of hours.

Sometimes I think about what would have happened if I hadn't gotten insulin. If for some reason it had not been available. I wonder how long it would have taken for me to go into a coma, how long it would have taken to die. Would I have lived to turn 18?
Right after I was diagnosed I felt that the insulin was great for making me feel better, but I still would have been alive without it. Today, today I would be dead without it.

2 comments:

Jen said...

Hey Jonah! Welcome to the DOC.
Thanks for the comment on my blog. I appreciate your input. I look forward to reading more of your posts!

cc said...

i think i'd give myself about 3 days to live. the 1st day, just feeling generally crappy. the 2nd, my muscles wouldn't be working and i'd be confined to bed, probably puking and unable to digest anything... the 3rd day, i would just be in a coma, and hopefully taken to a hospital by then.

yeah, i've thought about it. disturbing thoughts, these ones.